My current body of work and imagery evolves from an exploration of personal, collective and empathetic anxieties. In my drawings, ambiguous human and botanical biological systems combine to inform fictionalized observed living subjects. I imagine they are specimens in a kind of empirical study and simultaneously examine them as I construct them. As they emerge I am aware that the lived experience in my body is vast and enigmatic. In the face of what seems inevitable extinction they thrive, unknowingly, in the era of the Anthropocene.
The landscapes or habitats in these compositions recollect pathos and elation. Inside me is an impossible space that opens beyond its scale and in these expanding dimensions, anxiety, potential, agency is held. I think about the interplay of resilience and pain in these specimens –triumphant adaptations and self-sufficient, sometimes toxic, systems. I am interested in the notion of psychosomatic scar tissue in relation to psychological and biological systems.
The specimens posit the notion that strength, pain, humor, toxicity and transformation can prosper even as we humans observe a constant stream of violence, environmental disaster and species extinction. I often wonder how we process the influx of our daily and global realities and where in the body we absorb these truths. The process of making these drawings channels my anxiety as the intricate line work engages my need for repetition and addresses my desire for the transformation of pain through imagined forms.
I have long appreciated the structural relationships between botanical, geological, biological and even conceptual patterns; the way streams and rivers branch off like veins and capillaries, tree limbs, root systems and cracks in mud; how thought processes build and flow charts organize - how we navigate through multiple windows of the internet and time migrates.
My work often addresses recurring themes that interact with personal politics of consumption, internalization, and anxiety. I am especially interested in the symbiotic relationship between the external and internal; consuming and being consumed. Part of the practice of consuming indicates a need to exert control, which, paradoxically, seems to slip away when we act as consumers intentionally and circumstantially.